Stories. Random stories, on life.

Now, reading scrolling down friends blogposts, facebook posts, of stories and sketches, of life and leasons, heartful, mindful opinions.
-people are there, here with stories, they value life, and of lessons learn through life. Ye, and that teaches me to value life. Easy.-

Upon Friendships' catastrophy, not at ease, a two sided images falling through. A different view, and of anger and hateret. And of a total misunderstanding! Just hours pass an emotional judgements. Be rational, keep calm. Dont let anger blow your mind off. Please. Or, can i just stay to be the ignorent me?

Upon those, each and everyone take important roles in my life, shaping up the character inside, of the A that teaches me to be patient, rational. And the S with sincerity and positive views on friendship, a detailed measure, care and views. And U with the love of a little sister. T, still holding back, with great understanding, as well as F, still, of a great courage on things. These, are people with great care, for friendship.

Now, randomly for note, the bbq night out, the junior makan2 afternoon, the Killdare shop, and ikea, now with lost and found tricks playing, above all, of regrets, for not giving the best, the one that we love most.
Plus, on how i got great expensive stuffs from ppl around. Sobs.

Most importantly, syukur dan regret, which will come on top of one another? Which dominates?

Now we are manouvering our way through, differently.

Sabar, sabar, sabar. Al ankabut page second lasts.

Moving, manouvering.


P/s: an attempt to value life.

Langkah yang payah

Aku adalah seorg muslim. Memperkasa mukmin. Penghujung hidupku ada perbicaraan. Itu akhirnya. Maka aku perlu berusaha. Mencapai yg terbaik, pada kaca mata pencipta.

Pupuk iman itu. Amal jangan ditinggalkan. Kerana setiap nafas, setiap langkah, adalah hadiah, mencari barakah. Allah. Bantulah. Aku dan saudaraku. Kerna aku lemah.

Jangan merasa lemah, kerana Allah beri yang terbaik pada org beriman. Maka beramallah. Hidup itu, setiap segala adalah amal. Berpenat penatlah, dalam faham ilmu rasa seorg hamba yg lemah.

Usaha, melangkahlah, fikirlah, kerana itu yg akan dinilai akhirnya.
Hulurkan bantu kasih pada semua.


Sukar begini. Tiada daya tolak.
Ini.
Inilah rahsianya. Penggerak, dgn ilmulah kita melangkah.

Source: http://musafirperjuangan85.blogspot.ie/2012/02/buat-dosa-kerana-dosa.html?m=1

Makanlah sebanyak mana madu sebagai penawar, kita tidak mungkin sembuh selagi racun ditelan jua. Itulah ibarat kebaikan dan dosa yang dilakukan serentak. Dalam surah al-Baqarah, ayat ke 42, Allah s.w.t. berfirman:

“Dan janganlah kamu campuradukkan kebenaran dengan kebatilan dan (janganlah) kamu sembunyikan kebenaran, sedangkan kamu mengetahui.”

Satu ayat yang ringkas tetapi mengena buat jiwa-jiwa yang tulus dan sensitif. Hitam dan putih tidak mungkin sama. Apabila ia bercampur, tidak mungkin putih akan kekal suci, bahkan hitam jua mendominasi.
Terlalu besarkah kita untuk memutuskan bahawa kita itu selayaknya di neraka sedangkan Allah menjanjikan syurga bagi orang yang bertaubat?

Adakah kita itu ‘Tuhan’ sehingga boleh menentukan bahawa sesuatu perbuatan itu tidak mungkin diampunkan sedangkan Allah menanti panggilan kita?

Jika itu yang kita rasakan, lihatlah apa yang Allah katakan: “Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu (Muhammad) tentang Aku, maka sesungguhnya Aku dekat. Aku kabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila dia berdoa kepada-Ku. Hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (perintah)-Ku dan beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka memperoleh kebenaran.” (Al-Baqarah, 2:186)

Dan baca pula hadith ini:

Dari Anas bin Malik r.a. berkata: Aku mendegar Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda, Allah s.w.t. berfirman, "Wahai anak Adam, sepanjang engkau memohon kepada-Ku dan berharap kepada-Ku akan Aku ampuni apa yang telah kamu lakukan, Aku tidak peduli. Wahai anak Adam, jika dosa-dosamu setinggi awan di langit kemudian engkau meminta ampunan kepada-Ku akan Aku ampuni. Wahai anak Adam, sesungguhnya jika engkau datang kepada-Ku membawa kesalahan sebesar dunia kemudian engkau datang kepada-Ku tanpa menyekutukan Aku dengan sesuatu pun, pasti Aku akan datang kepadamu dengan ampunan sebesar itu pula.” (HR Tirmidzi, Hasan Sahih)


Ilmu
Iman
Amal

Physical beings vs emotional beings?

masa berlalu.
tak sangka secepat ni.

kisah hidup, biasa, tatkala semua mereka, mereka dan mereka ingin membuat 1001 kebaikan, biah itu tercipta
tapi ya, kita semua hidup di dunia yang, besar. maka, banyak pilihannya.
pilihan,
bukan suatu yang mudah.

1001 coretan kata boleh diungap, namun, jika tiada rasa, makna, tak mampu memperbaiki jiwa, buat apa.
kan?
depends

its weird, funny actually, on how things work, really.
you are here, alone, things are happening out there.

just within the concealed atmosphere, it makes up another chapter of life.
a two roads within.

its weird tho. on how physical sickness affects our beings, but not the soul, unlike of what emotions do.
the more powerful? I'd say it to be the second one.
because of it, comes a relieve, deep inside, out.
tears.

I'f felt it, deep inside, in another chapter of life,
in two different situations.
studies,
sickness.

of both, are of different stories, but comes together crossing, creating a great blessings, for me to understand,
treasure.

bernafaslah, kini dengan tawakkal yang utuh, usaha, dalam langkah, dan jiwa seorang hamba, pada Penciptanya.

GAZA!

#1 whatever comes from the heart, goes to the heart#
this is what I'd been missing these years. of all these years.

everything seems to fit in. a normal day I shall say.

head is still spinning. the hatred is in. lots to jot down so that I will remember, and not forget. lots and lots of it. thinking that notes, will help me to be a better me, perhaps?

I was wrong. I wanted to get things organised all these while. everything, I prepared notes, hoping that things will get better. not just study notes, no. notes, for my life. I forgot something more to it.

The feel, the love, the heart, ikhlas.
I forgot to let the heart gets it, not just the mind.

Crying. lost. I feel weak. very weak, outside and deep inside.

I wanted to make a change. i really do. but everything went on, badly.

well, the first note, is the change.
now the list.

#2 niat yang salah, akan membawa kepada guru yang salah
#3 if you love someone, you will want to know em by heart, emuli em.
#4 done. i don't want to care of whatever people thinks.
#5 i now want to do things my way. the Islam way of it.
#6 therefore I have to learn. by heart. of iman, taqwa, ilmu.

that's just it. prioritising is important. everybody have their own life.
don't simply compare. you holds your own

#7 tawakkal, the Siti Hajar's way. (safa marwah, saie')
#8 study evidences, don't just use heart and feelings for it, and that is what called the knowledge, ilmu.

I love Rasulullah, therefore I want to know my beloved one.
I'm a servant, a slave in this world, therefore I want to just put my head on the ground, and let alone the Creator be in my heart. this, comes will amal, effort, kesungguhan.
I want to learn things by heart, therefore, I want to put my pen down, listens, craved it, on the heart, and let it flow, by doing it. amalkan.

dan,
saya ingin akan tarbiyah,
and ingin mentarbiyah, bukan agar mereka bergantung harap pada saya,
tapi, agar mereka, sama-sama menyumbang ke arah yang haq.

amal. amal. amal.

of UAI's ceramah, random notes on the net, and Al Maghrib's the Shepherd's path.

p/s: keluarga kurang sihat. doakan, saya dan mereka. insyaAllah.
Ya Rabb. berkatilah masa kami.

GAZA!
buat diri yang ingin melangkah, cepatlah. cepat. mereka, merekaa sudah jauh melangkah.
AYUH BANGKIT!

Sebuah nafas baru

Dialog hamba-hamba Allah sepertiku:

"Pada ketika kat atas tu, aku rasa dekatt sgt dgn Allah. Hanya aku dan Allah. Seperti diangkat beban dari bahuku"

"Kita ada 2 pencuri. Masa lampau dan masa akan dtg. Kini, masa ini, atas apa yang kita lakukan saat ini, itu, lebih utama"

"Kefahaman dan hafalan, mungkin berbeza. Kita belajar ikhlas? Ka nak exam ja? Ingat tak apa kita buat lepas exam? Apa kita buat dengan masa kita"

Nukilan cinta:

Sebuah penciptaan yg amat sempurna, siang dan malam, gunung ganang, pokok-pokok yg mendapat air yang sama tapi rasa dan kelebihnyang berbeza.

Pandangan mata:

Dan kulihat hari ini burung-burung putih berterbangan di awan biru, burung-burung hitam pula di bawah, mengutip debu? Amat menakjubkan. Bagi mereka yang memikirkan.

Maka, nikmat Allah mana yang ingin kamu dustakan.

Hidup, dan belajarlah dengan mata hati. Ya, mungkin itu yang kucari selama ini, sebuah pandangan mata hati.

:')

ILMU dan KEFAHAMAN dari ALLAH

5 minit bezanya,

ku terus belajar hari ini, dari jiwa.

beza, dan ya, sangat berbeza,

jika difahamkan sesuatu dengan ILMU dan bukan hanya dengan EMOSI.

maka diri, fahamilah sesuatu dengan ILMU ALLAH, dan fahamilah, dan pelajarilah, dan HIDUPLAH dengannya, BERAMAL dengannya, dan hakikatnya, itulah yang akan menjadi modal bekal, tidak sia-sia.

Gearing Up!

As salam

When I saw her, I saw the old me

A person full of views and thoughts.

Well, she's just wayy better of course! I envied her courage and oneself. Of knowing what we want in life is just not easy.

I lost my track right now. I don't really know what I want, I don’t know what should be done, simply said, I'm lost. To gather back those packed-flatted spirit is not easy.

Now, see.

Who am I?

I'm a person of hope, of courage, full of ambition, full of insights (which I never let people know of it , as I only let those thing flows into my deep buried diary and my so-called anonymous blog and that is just what make her different from me as she just have that courage to let it out) fuh.

Well, despite of being ignorant, egoistic and just a me-oriented-self I'm not that bad huh?

Naahh

I'm a bad person.

At heart.

How did years changes me? I live in the world full of, changes. People around me changes rapidly, climbing those good-deeds-pathways? Which is good.

Me? I learnt a LOT. Lots of things flew in, but, the feelings, emotions, hope, and the urge to make a change, a good change seems to be fading away. The urge to stay at the same pace, making changes are just, not there. It’s there sometimes, but not everytime. They called it futur. Is it? I don’t know.

I observe things around, sometimes, I got something, to treasure. Sometimes I just don’t.

Ever heard that musics and smells brings back memories? Never believed it when I was a little kid, but now, yeah, it did. Random.

I grew up, being a person full of courage, and insights. Yes I do. That is where I get, a sense of myself.

Gearing up!

I can't be the old stagnant me. No I can't.

I can't always ramble on feelings,

I can't be someone of no, educational views?

Dan ketahuilah,

" Al Ahzab ( 33:70-71). Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bertakwalah kamu kepada Allah dan ucapkanlah perkataan yang benar. Nescaya Allah akan memperbaiki amal-amalmu dan mengampuni dosa-dosamu.

 Dan barang siapa mentaati Allah dan rasulNya, maka sungguh, dia menang dengan kemenangan yang agung. "

So what went wrong? Where have myself been these whole few years back?

Banyak input, tanpa rasa dan amal adalah sia-sia - bagiku.

The iman, and amal! That is what went missing these years.

The iman the iman the iman.

Of feelings, that we do everything because of Allah swt.

The urge of seeking Allah's blessing is put apart from our hard-working for the dunya.

Realizing that we can be called back to our Creator is there.

But the awareness and feel of it is just now strong enough.

And I just now hope, that DUA' will help me find my way through.

-taqwa, tawakkal. Big words.

Efford should not be put apart.

Everything, will just be collected and presented in front of the Creator.

No, don’t just learn it.

FEEL and LIVE with it.

Remember that, always remember that.

Of being good inside, with iman, and taqwa at heart, insyaAllah it will, insyaAllah flashes out…

And when the time come.

I will not regret.

We will not regret.

Hoping, praying,

Me

18Oct2012; 11.58am

Study table

University.

p/s: I found a picture of myself, years, years ago, sitting beside a teacher, who had passed away, recently. Feel it.