Projek Maal Hijrah

assalamuaalaikum.

kau tau tak ak dilema sangat2 sekarang ni.

arghh!!

ak pon taktau nak mula kat mana.

kau tauu takk ak jalan mana2 ak nampak a gurl and a guy jalan sekali.

kalau kau tengok muka ak time tu sure punya kau kata

"kau keempunan kaan tengok kitorang berkasih sayang nii!haha padan muka"

macam mana ak nak cakap ni ek..

emm.

well, ak ingat nak mencarut-carut tetapi memandangkan azam maal hijrah ak adalah untuk tidak bercakap benda2 yang negative. so, yeahh..

but still,

whatt theeeeee..... (just that, no continuation)

benda ni kawan2 bukan masalah korang ja tau takk.

yang paling ak kisah sekali adalah bukan bab2 anda semua nak jalan 2 2 orang comel2 macam tu.

masalah yang ak sangat concern adalah masalah ak.

heh

ya, ak memang pentingkan diri.

ak tak tau lahh. ak bukan baik pon, so bagi ak, korang kawan ak la.

sebab tu ak jadi sangat segan bila nampak.

dan ak tak cakap apa2.

tak bermakna ak cakap yes dengan apa yang kau buat.

kadang2 ak rasa macam.

well, sampai hati korang tinggal ak sorang2 macam ni.

korang tak sayang ak ka.

ak rasa tersisih.

kau tauu takkk. sedih!
kau buat ak macam ni, tingal ak sorang2 yang sama jantina dengan kau lepas tu p jalan dengan orang lain yang lain jantina.

dan sekali lagi ak macam nak mencarut-carut.

tapi bendanya.

ak agak sayang dan treasure persahabatan kita.

kau tau. tak

ak sayang kau.

yes,

kau, kau dan kau sekali. dan semua2 kau yang sama jantina dengan ak.

so

pernah jadi ak buat benda yang ak sedar salah. dan ak menyesal

dan ak sedar apa ak buat salah. sebab ak sedar sendiri.

dan ak bertaubat tak nak buat dah.

bukan bab2 ni ja, it applies to almost everything.

so sapa bagitao ak salah dan ak kena berubah?

kadang2 ada la kawan2 tapi mostly

ILMU yang bagitau ak.

so, faham tak point ak sekarang. ak tak cakap apa2 sangat supaya ak harap semua orang yang buat benda2 salah ni sedar sendiri dengan kefahaman ilmu yang ada.

supaya effect dia long-lasting.

kalau nak cakap korang tak tau

tipu lahhhh

adik ak pon boleh cakap,

ey, duduk dua dua orang lelaki dan perempuan bukan tak boleh ka.

ak cakap. kalau dah kahwin takpa.

diorang dah kahwin tu kot.

kau tak kesian adik ak dan adik2 kau tunjuk duduk lelaki perempuan tu baik.

kau tak kesian kaa..

entah. ak tak tau nak elaborate apa.

sebab ak faham ja. ak banyak terperangkap dalam situasi yang ak tak suka dan orang tengok ak semacam.

eww. kau ingat kau baik buat macam tu?

so yeah. i lotally understand if you're trapped ka what not.

tapi, ni macam tak. kau tak desperate nak duduk dalam situation yang macam tu.

well, only Allah knows right?

serious ak dilema sekarang.

ak jahat kot. ak jahat sangat. sebab tu ak tak berani nak cakap hal2 yang berkaitan benda yang macam baik sikit ni.

kalau kau orang ingat ak jenis orang yang sangat pemalu, duduk diam2 tepi corner tak cakap langsung dengan budak2 lain jantina.

kau memang salah orang lahh.

ak giggle2 gila2 jugak selalu.

tu la. ak tau salah gelak lebih2 ni.

see, ak jahat. duh.

tolong la ak berubah.

tapi ada pulak counter claim dia

orang cakap benda tak baik kena tegur

kalau tidak nanti dia claim kat akhirat

kenapa tak tegur dia.

CIS, KAU JANGAN TAK PASAL2 NAK CLAIM KAT AKHIRAT!

arghh. kau nampak takk masalah ak yang semakin bertimpa2.

susah doooooo

ak tak tau macam mana nak cakap.

takkan ak nak pergi depan2 korang cakap

ya kawan2 sedarlah bahawa apa yang anda buat ini dilarang oleh Allah kerana dia bertentangan dengan apa yang dianjurkan.....

??

nak cari pasal.

i just don't know how

sebab kalau kau nak tau, ak cakap sekali, 10 kali ak kena uji.

ak pon bercakap dengan budak2 yang berlainan jantina dengan ak. tu la.

ak pon macam bangang jugak gelak2 kuat2 tak senonoh dengan budak2 semua.

haiyh, so ak rasa, ak nak berubah! ak nak ajak semua sekali.

jom! berubah jadi lagi baik sama2.

jom la.

jom2

._.

kesian la kat ak. tolong ak ubah jadi baikk sikit..

ak kagum dengar ada orang ni, dia boleh ubah orang dengan kasih sayang dia,

dia cakap2 apa2 pon dengan penuh kasih sayanggg

dude, ak nak jadiii macammm tu!.

arghh. dia perempuan.

bebattt sangaatttttt

ak nak jadi macam tu weyh kalau ak perempuan.

kalau ak guys,

emm,

ak nak kawen ngan orang mcam tu lahhhh!!
=)

we share the same bright sun. the same bright moon why don't we share the same love kann

(Maher Zain)

ak ingat lagi syarat2 pertemuan yang ada ustaz pernah bagitau kat dewan.

1. pakaian menutup aurat
2. jangan guys gals 2 orang sahaja, kena ada mahram
3. tempat terbuka
4. perkara yang dibincangkan kena perkara yang bermanfaat. (jangan yang macam. emm, have u eaten dear, what did you hve for breakfast today, oh, havent eaten. wanna treat me ke? *lepas tu giggle*) tak bosan ka.

tapi jangan ambil kesempatan dengan benda ni. kau tahu ak nak cakap apa kan.

lagi satu, ak pon ada perasaan.

ak faham jugak la (ak rasa) perasaan duduk dua2 macam tu

awwww

macam sangat comell kannn?

ak faham2

it's like bahagia gila ada someone for us to rely on.

someone yang bagi kita rasa secure.

seronok la, well, rasa bahagia kan.

dude, ak rasa gak. tapi kau tak terterasa takut sikit ka diesebalik kebahagiaan tu.

kau rasa tak. kalau kau cakap tak. ak rasa kau. tipu, tak caya, kau tarik nafas, cari rasa tu yang ak rasa kau dah timbun2 kan dengan kebahagiaan kau yang konon banyak.

yes, memang rasa bahagia.

ak pernah rasa.

tapi tak lama. tak lama rasa tu sebab well, just benda rasa2 seronok macam ni tak lama.

kau tak caya?

suka hati. tapi tu ja la ak nak cakap.

lebih baik kau pergi sayang orang yang sama jantina. sayang atas dasar yang sepatutnya.

kau cakap senang kan?

kau tak rasa.

ya, susah, ak faham

KAU INGAT AK NAK LAWAN PERASAAN senang ka.

tapi kena lawan lahh. jangan dok biar rasa bahagia angin2 semua tu tutup rasional kita.

think people think.

jangan biar perasaan take control over benda rasional.

jangan.

ak pon dalam proses nak berubah.

susah kot. ak fahamm sangat.

tapi kena cuba.

kena jauhkan.

okay tu ja.

yang ak nak bagitau.

err, jangan tanya ak sapa

ak takkan bagitau punya.

sebab tu ak buat benda ni. sebab ak boleh cakap ak nak cakap

freely

and wont be judge in the real world

ak nak orang tau apa ak fikir ja.

without been compared and judge.

so yeah.

kalau korang nak tau,

ini, INII

blog ni. adalah projek maal hijrah ak!

selamat datang.

ahlan wasahlan.

=)

p/s: ak kumpul blog2 budak kmb tepi ni. sapa yang ak tak include lagi, bagitau la, nnti ak letak

Booster Shot - Ramadhan edition.

Salam

Ramadhan is leaving. time moves, and it is v important to remember that.

recently, i'm searching for meanings in life. and these days. v difficult indeed.

just to tell you, even how far I went on searching, it brings me back to ISLAM, the way of life.

it gives me tranquillity when I needed it the most, and to remember our creator, is v soothing.

i need courage and bravery. HE gives me, when I needed it the most.

Ya Allah, the most Merciful, aid us to the right path. and make every second we live in this world with iman and taqwa, so that we'll be prepared when the day comes.

and please ya Allah, I want us - family, teachers and friends, muslimin & muslimat - to live together in Jannah, without to go though the hell fire. I beg you ya Rabb...

i really really really miss my family right now.

i must strive for victory.

it is what i hear 5 times a day.

i must not be lazy. be strong, read

IQRA!
yes, and have dreams. reach em'

finddunya wal akhirah

never give up

and ramadhan is still here.

so, you still have time to refresh!

yey! do it with love and understanding.

InsyaAllah. we'll make it through!

First Ramadhan.

It was the first day of Ramadhannn

so, just want to wish everyone,

Ramadhan Kareem!!!!

btw.

The feelings during tarawih prayer just now was beyond words.

those calmness and tranquility I'd been searching for all this while is in front of me.

and, I feel like I have more time now.

well, time is merely our thoughts.

like one of my see-from-far-friend said.

personally, it's the barakah that counts.

have a blast Ramadhan.!!

May Our Creator lead us to the right path.

Insya Allah.

nothing important

Salam

subahanallah! the skies are beautified by awesome fluffy-cotton-candy cloud!

those are the signs for those who think and believe.

Life teaches us lots of wonderful stuffs.

see, sometimes, i feel like I need to be alone, by myself, and discover all the things that I'd done wrong.

I hate to be in a large crowd, I hate it when I mess up my life, and I really really hate it when I look silly and stupid.

I hate it when I downgraded someone, and have bad perceptions on someone.

I need to make improvements.

what's rights and what's wrong are clearly shown but it seems like I never attempt to go beyond my comfort zone,

why?

take presentation for example. I'll try very hard to find escapism rather than to find solutions.

I'm not a good presenter and oh well, I just don't have the courage.

but, if I had to, I will. but till now, I never presented in English class.

everyone else is going ahead of me, and I could just see them moving.

I don't know... It feels bad to just stand here forever. but, oh well. since I don't dare to do so, Seems like I really have to stand here forever....

I realise something really important about life.

First of all, this life is not ours,

time is also not ours, so, don't afraid to not having enough time for improvement,

try and leave everything else to Allah.

I don't want to do stupid things again.

I love knowledge, as it feeds my mind.

but to get the knowledge is not easy.

Taqwa and istiqamah is important.

time can flow very fast if you tried very hard to control it, but have faith, and just focus on doing something one at a time. we do have more than enough time. than it'll be fine.

I'd made a mistake. I don't know, it feels wrong.

I hate it! InsyaAllah, I'll not repeat it.

Knowledge could come at any time in life,

we just need to strongly believe.

this is a mess.

...................

I need a break, to reorganise my life.

go!

Salam.

Smelling the fresh running downpour around this human made concrete, I pen down my says.

This few months had been a hectic one.

the days just come and go. don't have the power to stop it.

catching time is just, impossible. We always brag on how time move so fast and we don't have enough time to do what we want to do. But hey, the Almighty said, he'd provide us enough time. Each and everyone here, in this world was granted with enough time to do whatever things that need to be done.

what went wrong?

To prepare.

that's the secret of managing time.

brilliant one see how time is just enough for us.

The Chargers

وَالْعَادِيَاتِ ضَبْحًا ﴿١﴾

(1) By the (Steeds) that run, with panting (breath),

فَالْمُورِيَاتِ قَدْحًا ﴿٢﴾

(2) And strike sparks of fire,

فَالْمُغِيرَاتِ صُبْحًا ﴿٣﴾

(3) And push home the charge in the morning,

فَأَثَرْنَ بِهِ نَقْعًا ﴿٤﴾

(4) And raise the dust in clouds the while,

فَوَسَطْنَ بِهِ جَمْعًا ﴿٥﴾

(5) And penetrate forthwith into the midst (of the foe) en masse;-

إِنَّ الْإِنسَانَ لِرَبِّهِ لَكَنُودٌ ﴿٦﴾

(6) Truly man is, to his Lord, ungrateful;

وَإِنَّهُ عَلَىٰ ذَ‌ٰلِكَ لَشَهِيدٌ ﴿٧﴾

(7) And to that (fact) he bears witness (by his deeds);

وَإِنَّهُ لِحُبِّ الْخَيْرِ لَشَدِيدٌ ﴿٨﴾

(8) And violent is he in his love of wealth.

۞ أَفَلَا يَعْلَمُ إِذَا بُعْثِرَ مَا فِي الْقُبُورِ ﴿٩﴾

(9) Does he not know,- when that which is in the graves is scattered abroad

وَحُصِّلَ مَا فِي الصُّدُورِ ﴿١٠﴾

(10) And that which is (locked up) in (human) breasts is made manifest-

إِنَّ رَبَّهُم بِهِمْ يَوْمَئِذٍ لَّخَبِيرٌ ﴿١١﴾

(11) That their Lord had been Well-acquainted with them, (even to) that Day.?

Steeds had been well-described in this verse. How Allah had explain it in such an amazing way.

it describes to us how important it is to make preparation - in everything we want to do, in every situation.

and when the time come, just go ahead, do not hesitate. at all!

tawakkal... have faith that the best will be given.

He will not just evaluate the end result, but instead the journey itself is evaluated.

Lately, i tried to grasp back the things that I'd let go all this while.

I can see it coming back. Bit by bit.

I hope, it will be stronger than before.

and yes,

Of strength and confidence.

InsyaAllah

p/s: emm, I miss my form 5 birthday celebration. the publicity they gave this time, well, a new exposure of the real world I shall say.

It Got Screwed Up!

Salam...

Tomorrow I'll be going back to college.
Mid sem break officially ends~

Dear me, just remember to stay away from driving for this short while.
wahhhhahahhaha..
Traumatised!

The broken side mirror cost RM 200.00++... oh man, I feel sooo guilty. Money is flowing rapidly, and that reckless act of mine add up to the sum.... I'm such a burden...
Oh, not to forget the engine starter moment as well.

No more driving for me....
At least for this few months.

I don't want to grow up...
Can I stay to be a 3 years old child for a while, please...
I miss the good old days when I'm in my childhood life.

*Time*

Waking UP

Salam..

This few months ware a hectic one.

I had enough break.
Now, I need to wake up, and be brave to stand for what I think is right..
As long as you know you did the right thing, don't hesitate to carry on with what you're doing.
Keep on moving!

Solve everything one by one.

Oh, did I mention before that I'm undergoing international baccalaureate diploma programme.
Maybe some of you understand what I mean.

=)